Christmas was really relaxing. Didn't do anything in particular, I just hovered around the kitchen for most of the morning watching and helping my mum prepare dinner...she was so anxious to get everything cooked in time...in the end she finished cooking dinner by 3pm. In between cooking, my mum and me opened up our presents! We had a big load this year...I don't know why...maybe because everything was bulky...she was really pleased and happy with everything, which is good. Bf came over for the day as well and we passed time by watching a korean series...a love to kill...it has Rain in it!! It was all drama so I didn't find it as addictive...needs humour in it. We decided to eat our fantastic dinner at around 5...ham, turkey, pork, prawns, chips, veges, potato bakes...yumyum! We ate until we were going to explode...my mum made the dinner out to be a buffet setting...so she made us eat! After dinner bf and me went to Bibra Lake to see the Christmas lights...it was amazing!! I felt like I was in some theme park...the work that the household put into the display was so good...they even had a real lamb as part of it and it was really smelly! We also stopped by utopia for bbt to finish off our night =D

On Boxing Day, we woke up and headed to the city for the city-wide stocktake sale...omg..the am ount of people there was scary. Bf and me made the mistake of entering through Myers...we were kind of trapped on one floor, so we decided to exit and walk around to the other shops. People were going crazy...it felt like I was shopping in Asia during CNY! Shopping was actually pretty frustrating..long lines and rude people...grrr! Afterwards, we went for dinner at Saigon with Calvin and bf's other workmate..think his name was Michael...an ang mo guy, he made some pretty funny comments and he looked quite awkward most of the time, which was entertainment for me...maybe he felt odd being the only white person in the group so he felt he needed to crack white jokes? I don't know...We then walked to the soccer stadium by 8 to watch the Glory play. When we got there...wow, there were so many people! 12, 000 I think, I actually found it more interesting to watch everyone around me than the actual game. For the rest of the night I lay in my bed readinf the Twilight books...I'm loving them...I'm hoping to finish the 3rd book before Friday so that I can go on holiday in peace hehe.

The next day, we went shopping again at Garbos...I didn't buy very much at all, which was disappointing, but bf did get me the 4th season of Spongebob! =D He bought a lot of clothes though, which he was happy about. Was emo for the rest of the day though...

Today, went over to bf's house watch a Taiwanese series called, Why Why Love, it has Rainie in it. It's really corny but funny in a stupid of way, so I can continue watching it! Think we are up to episode 4...anyway in the late afternoon we went and had dinner at Nandos! Mmmmmm!! Then we went to watch Madagascar 2...it was really funny, but a bit predictable. I saw the preview for a new movie called Monsters vs. Aliens, it looks really good! So we must all go watch that when it comes out! Now I'm home and I'm bored...I haven't read much of my books today, but I will soon...instead I've been playing with my hair...I really want to change it somehow..maybe the parting? And I want to have black hair again...think that it'll be a nice change for the new year!

5 more sleeps until Singapore =D

xxx

Help me! I'm thinking too much again =( Whenever I'm left alone by myself...my mind wanders and then I overstress and get depressed over everything. How stupid, sometimes I hate it when I think...I'd rather just do. Hmm...in one night, a lot has gone through my head...let me release and share with you all...

OK, firstly I don't know what I'm doing next year...which is really scary..even though I'm still living at home and I'm being supported by my parents...I kind of feel that I need to get off my butt and start being more independent...I think that I've slacked off enough. But...I don't want to work fulltime yet, because once I start, there won't be anymore slack time....why am I so lazy? ahaha. At the moment, I kind of really want a job teaching next year, because a lot of my uni friends have been offered one, which makes me feel rather left out, but I'm not going to go all emo and start regretting my opportunity to go teach in Kalgoorlie...I really think I made the right choice in not going. It's just that if they can all get jobs close to their homes...then I should be able to too right? Only problem is...they have contacts...I don't have many. Argh...school is ending very soon, I think that I'd better go have a chat with my ATP teachers...they might miraculously offer me a job someplace...wish me luck for next year =)

Also, I've been feeling really bottled up inside...when I start to think about certain situations my head congests and tears start to swell...I hold them back making things worse. What I need is someone there for me to listen and willing to hear what I have to say. I may seem quite quiet most of the time but I think that it is because I have fallen victim to being a listener. I have a couple of friends that I believe to be listeners that actually listen to what people say...and I thank God that they are in my life. I guess what I am trying to say is, I need someone there for me that will listen and try to understand me for once, instead of someone that always tries to make me understand them. How will you ever start to know who I really am if you don't ask me or give me a chance to just speak. I don't want to hold back when I try to express myself...it's painful.

Am I demanding too much? Does it seem like I always have to win? Is calling me on the phone such a strenuous activity? Why am I always the one that seems to be fighting for hope? Is it wrong for me to try and spread a bit of cheer? Is being tired even an excuse in a relationship? Am I really as happy as I seem to be...

There is just so much going on, but is there anyone actually there that will care to listen to what I think? Sigh...if only.

Anyways...emo panda shall back into her cave now =PI've busy lately, with the summer holidays well and truly settling in =D. In a nutshell...

Friday, bf and me joined the gym near my house..hooray! At night, the usual gang met at Utopia for some karaoke fun. The only thing different this time was that we had FOOD! omg, it was so good with 4 pizzas and KFC yom! It somehow made the night more entertaining, plus we were given a weird room with an uncovered window, suitable for peekages. We were scared by one particular person looking inside at us...Ama screamed, so naturally so did everyone else ahaha...her scream is contagious. I also saw the giants Charles and Chenelle as well as Alvin downstairs.


Saturday...didn't have work or tutoring anymore, so bf and me headed to the gym for our first workout session =D I have to say, gymming is very the fun. There weren't too many people there, so it let us explore the place more comfortably. I used the treadmill and bikes...I'm surprised I even lasted for an hour..can't wait for the next time we go. At night, Jen+C, Ama, Jas, Wei and me headed to methoes for some crazy dancing. It was a Christmas theme, but it seemed that only the bartenders dressed up haha. We got there and it was completely dead and really weird just standing around in so much open space! Things picked up after a while though. It was really really hot and we were all sticky, but had a lot of fun dancing and singing...weiwei is psycho haha! Saw quite a few people there too...we got home at 3ish in the morning, which wasn't too bad!


Sunday, such a hot day! Jen, Ama and me headed to Fremantle for Jas's graduation. Yays! Congrats to my chicken for finishing! So proud of her hehehe. We were seated outside, but it was still undercover and I think probably cooler than inside...good thing we had programs to use as fans ahaha. The ceremony went for just over an hour, which wasn't too bad. I saw Janelle graduate too! Such a coincidence =) Afterwards we went into the student commonroom and had free drink...which was a really good idea because everyone was thirsty! Then Jen, Ama and me walked to Dome for a snack. Soon Jas came and joined us and we had a big gossip session hohoho. At night bf took to go watch Highschool Musical 3! It was really good and the songs were catchy as usual. I think it's the last one, so sad. But I'll be sure to go get all 3 movies when they are out. The cinema was really empty too...guess not many people watch movies on Sunday nights ehehe.


Tonight...got rockband party at chicken's house...yay!!

I've had a busy week...being out everyday, so it's taken me a while to blog and remember eveything. It was a good week I guess...but because a lot happened...the blog might seem long! So sorry to strain your eyes...skim read =D

Monday...I went to the city to meet up with Jas to shop for SF's present. We ate at Mr Samurai first though...I was super hungry! I still can't believe how cheap the food is there! We then browsed Myer for a while looking in the cosmetics sections...there was a lot of options there but in the end we got her a make-up case. It was pretty cool and worth the amount it cost! Afterwards we shopped around a little bit and ended up at Jennie's stationery shop (next to Takas!) and accompanied her until closing time. It was really fun! We gossiped and questioned a certain someone online...hahah we're so mean. Jas and me also made a birthday card for SF..it had a pig on it...and it was very colourful. I went home with Jennie and Jeral, who I had not seen in ages...those two are so funny and kept the journey back home entertaining=D

Tuesday...SF's birthday...Jas, Ama , Jennie plus 1 and bf met up in Northbridge to eat at Teacafe. We sat and chatted a bit before going upstairs to Utopia for Sf's birthday. I hadn't been in those karaoke rooms in ages...nothing much had changed. When we got into the room all I saw was this pink thing jumping towards us..sf and I didn't really know anyone else in the room..ahh room full of strangers. Sf seemed pretty energetic and I guess happy, which was good to see, but it was weird seeing her after not seeing her for a long time? Anyway...karaoke was really hot and stuffy and before the night even started, bf had to go home early to sleep and you know...he announced that he was leaving to everyone in the room and said his goodbyes...but he failed to even say bye to me or look at me! Grrr...I just know that I felt so neglected. He came back to say bye to me after the girls asked him to...but that didn't change the way I felt...I felt so unloved...unloved!! Anyway...during the night, Levi was being hell annoying and kept trying to take photos of us...so I had a plate in front of my face the whole night. I'm glad he hasn't put anything up on facebook..The coolest parts of the night was Sf's giant cake...shame we couldn't eat much of it...and the other cool part was watching one of Sf's friends...he was really helplful throughout the night and not a bad singer either! I think we wanted to befriend him ahaha. We left at around 12ish waiting for wei2 to arrive, but he never did..so Jennie drove us all back home in her plus 1's massive BMW...she's so brave to have driven that! We got home safely in the end =D

Wednesday..I woke up with a surprise...bf was home and didn't go to work and asked if I wanted to go shopping, because he felt bad for saying goodbye to everyone except for me, at SF's birthday...hmmph. I grudgingly said OK to the offer...he's so bad. Anyway, we went to the Galleria to buy the twins a present for their birthdays. It was a really hard choosing presents for people that already have everything! In the end we got them perfume and a wallet..not the most original gifts but meh! hehehe. By the end of the day..I guess the gurdge I had had gone away...he distracted me welll...hmm I feel sorry for hime sometimes...I really shouldn't get so sensitive about things...need to reform.

Thursday...I had work. I was up at takeaway because Mary had already left on her holiday. It wasn't very busy so I was happy to chat with the girls at work and I showed them my sunburns ahaha..I wasn't the only one that had them..but they did seem to be the worst =( Work wasn't too bad...I took home a lot of food and my boss gave me 1/4 of a carrot cake for my mum. At night, bf and me went to Carousel in search of Guitar Hero: World Tour =D We found it at EB games for $279 I think. We found Fooky there too buying the same game ahaha. We also shopped for the twins's birthday cards...a softball with a message written on it for their 21st (they play softball ahaha). Afterwards we went back to dorky's and quickly set up guitar hero and played it until we were ready to KO. Guitar Hero rocks!

Friday...I had work. It wasn't very busy but I still had to work up at takeaway...felt so lonely and stinky. At night, bf and me went to city for some late night shopping..but first we ate at the food court...yummy yummy. We walked around browsing this and that. New shops had also opened up, which was exciting..mimco is coming! I wonder what else will open...we keep saying that Perth is starting to look a bit like Sydney, just that it needs to expand heaps more. I don't think we bought very much...oh bf did buy me an early Christmas present...muahs! The Christmas decorations around the city were also really nice this year...so many pretty lights and I loved the red bow around the bridge/arch things hehe. Ohh and we saw police horses! They were massive and looked so proud!

On Saturday I had to work at the cafe for the first time in ages! I was kind of forced to work because work was short staffed. All the regular workers had gone off on holiday...so I was expecting the day to be really busy, luckily it wasn't. My boss even asked an ex-worker to come. She's hardcore, with all these piercings and tattoos...she's a vegan too. I felt a bit intimidated by her, even though she was super friendly hmm...anyway my boss paid me $65 for 3.5 hours of work...yey! In the afternoon bf and me went to meet Calvin at the Elephant and Wheelbarrow and ate wedges before heading to the Perth Glory soccer match...I wasn't left to be babysitted this time =( But I guess the match was quite exciting this time...3 goals! I made sure I was in the shade too, I had sunscreen on and everything! I bought bf a soccer shirt from the merchandise stand...hehe his early Christmas present! After the game, bf and me walked into Northbridge to Teacafe! We love that place...Since I was craving the spaghetti bolognaise...I got it! Mmm it was worth the wait. I also tried the fruit and sago drink...it was so filling. After that we went to Easyway for our usual bubbletea then home we went!

Sunday...bf and me went to Henley Brook/Swan Valley for the twin's 21st birthday. Man, it was such a long drive, like we were driving into the country side. The venue was quite nice, the type of place where you would have your wedding reception, surrounded by vineyards. The guests that were invited were all of the twins's relatives...they have a very picture perfect family. Yops. At first, it felt a little awkward at the party...knowing no one, we were really the only Asian people there..the guests probably thought we had wandered into the wrong place. We didn't exactly act very social either. Oh well, good thing Sara and Kim were there to talk to us! The twin's mum also came and had a chat with us..she was really really nice, which I didn't expect, but she made us feel really welcome...she already knew who I was without me having to introduce myself...waaaaah I felt so special! There was lots of wine to drink, which was yummy and herb sausages in buns, beef noodles, the yummiest pizza, the yummiest chips and other nibbles to eat =D Oh and their cakes were so cute, 2 giant cupcakes! Hmm what else...I made Tracee and Natalie open up the softball that we signed as their card...hehe they seemed to really like it, I hope they like the actual present we got them too...they're just too hard to buy for! They're the type that already has everything...they are quite well off afterall. Oooh and we also saw a horse there =D I found out when I got home that my parents had woken up early to go watch the Christmas Pagent...in the day time? So weird...my parents are weird.

I shall never ever get sunburnt again. Seems like the burn was worse than I had thought =( Especially my shoulders, which look like 3rd degree burns! On a happier note though...I have already peeled off one layer of skin...man it was really gross but soooo addictive pulling off large pieces...it kind of reminded me of the fish flakes that came with the tako yaki I ate in Singapore ahahaha...Just yesterday the skin from my legs peeled (alot of it) and I made bf peel some too...I just wanted to see him squirm, so entertaining. Hmm...I've also started to develop moles or something dark on my legs and arms...hope it isn't too serious...arghh please heal faster!