Well, school has started and I'm feeling like I really should be at my first day of work today, but I'm not. Life is at a bit of a standstill for me...I did see this coming though so I probably should have braced myself for the moment. I can't really stand having the job of being a bum much longer...I feel the pressure, like eyes from my mum and family watching my every move as they wait for me to do something productive...maybe it's laziness? well...there goes my new years resolution!

It's scary just thinking about it...need to get over the fear of entering the working life and becoming more independent. I always think the worse whenever it comes to a changing point in my life...entering highschool, taking public transport for the first time, teaching in front of children for the first time and now...finding a real job! Everyone (except my family) tells me to savour my time off and not to rush into a full time job because after you're in, you're pretty much trapped in that full time working lifestyle until you retire...you just kind of get swept away in the flow. Sigh..I just wish that my mum would back off for a bit while I think things through so that I don't make any rash decisions. Although, I do see where she's coming from too..I guess what I have to do is at least try with everything and maybe something great will pop out of nowhere =)

Now for some randomness!!
Need to cut my hair...it's getting really feral and harder to maintain...ew.

I realise that I hate the game DOTA, even though I have never played it.

I love CNY.

Also last night, I was thinking about the past because I ate alot of nougat and couldn't get to sleep so I got thinking about how much I have learnt about myself. I felt that since I left highschool, I really concentrated on being more social and outgoing. Study was still a priority, but being social just made the last four years fly by. During that time I met a lot of new friends who have made me realise what I want in terms of relationships...I'm talking about guys here =) I was pretty clueless about them for a while and reading all those magazines...cleo, cosmo, dolly and girlfriend only confused me more. I met guys and was naive at first...it's funny to think back. There was a point in my life where it seemed that I had more guy friends than girlfriends...I wasn't some pimpette or anything like that...just it was the first time that I had ever interacted with guys without blushing or giggling and I found them interesting and not all that bad, so I made friends with them (nothing more!). Some of them were really good advice givers. Not all guys were dodgy as I had originally thought, although of course I met a few that were. The decent ones and the dodgy ones taught me alot without knowing it...

It's stupid, but I used to always wish for a bf when I was in highschool! haha. I always felt sad and thought that no one liked me =( What I really wanted was a guy as a friend..so sad! Because alot of guys wanted more than friendship, I think I put up a barrier claiming that I was anti-relationship girl. Truth was, I wanted to get to know a guy as a friend first...because I have been brought up to be sure and aware about things before jumping into them. Well anyway, from meeting different guys I learnt that what I looked for in a guy was...

1. Sincerity, someone that liked me 100%
2. Someone that was honest but not blunt in his words (Sensitive)
3. Someone that had confidence in himself and knew his own identity (someone who didn't try to be someone else)
4. Someone that didn't use money excessively to woo girls
5. Someone that wasn't too direct because it's scary and puts a girl on the spot
6. Someone that could be trusted (secrets could be kept and D&M's could be had)
7. Someone that was mature enough to admit that they were wrong when they were wrong and then would try his best to make things right again
8. Someone that wasn't confused about himself (because it only confuses those around him)
9. Someone that knew what they wanted and didn't play stupid games to get what they want
10. someone willing to be your friend before anything else
    

After waiting a long time, I finally met someone that I truly felt comfortable being with. I had never had a boyfriend before but after getting to know him, I realised that he was a friendly person not wanting anything more than just friendship, who was confident, honest and was there to help when I needed it. He slowly helped me to be more confident about relationships and to learn continuously by taking risks and to see things from different perspectives. If I made a mistake, he'd be there to help me get over it. I think that he was the first guy to ever put all his efforts into helping me, which I truly appreciate! He's everything I wanted plus more in a bf. Hehe I don't know why I decided to blog about this suddenly...I guess nougat does strange things to your mind =)

muahs to my bebe and thankyou for everything. I'm sorry for being so unreasonable at times. You are my one and only and I love you heaps! Looking forward to V day =D

(my silly bebe)
xxx

(My mum's cooking efforts this year)

I'm so stuffed!!! I just had CNY eve dinner with my family and my mum out did herself again with her cooking and just like Christmas, she started cooking early this morning...crazy mummy!We barely ate half of everything she cooked and didn't even have any rice...but I guess they'll be leftovers for the new year! Good job, mum! Love you for looking after us so much =) The festivities have begun =D

I think I'll make this post a fairly short one today...

It was a really hot day today and bf and me went to the city for a bit of light shopping...I was looking for an epilator and dorky needed a dvd rack and also lettuce. No epilator suitable was found and no dvd rack...but we got lettuce! On Murray Street Mall we watched the Chung Wah Liondance troupe perform and then chatted to the dancers afterwards. It was a nice afternoon with him, think I acted like an oddball though...reason? It was soo bloody hot!

(Chun Wah Lion dance performance in the city)

On Thursday night, the uni girls invited bf and me to dinner at Trigg Beach cafe because Jess was leaving for Eneabba to teach for 2 years. She's so lucky, she got a nice little town along the coast that isn't too far away from Perth! Not like Kalgoorlie, which is 5-6 hours away into the desert! Anyway...the cafe/restaurant was really nice...just take a look at the view we got (below) as we ate! I ordered a fish of the day and chips and my goodness, it was the biggest piece of fish I had ever eaten. Bf's meal was even bigger, his fish looked like a giant chicken fillet and tasted like it too! For dessert, we had sticky date pudding, our favourite!! It's always nice to catch up with the girls...I have a feeling we will stay in touch for a very long time..next time I'll see them will be at graduation and graduation dinner with our families..now that will be interesting!


(The view of Trigg Beach as we ate =))

The next night, bf's parents invited me and my parents out for dinner in City Beach. I think my parents were a little nervous about it, but I calmed my mum down and said it was just a time to get to know one another better! Luckily, bf's mum was really talkative so my mum and her got a long just fine. They seemed to have chatted heaps...about what? I have no idea because everyone was speaking in Canto...so lousy...no one ever bothered to teach me canto too =( From everyone's reaction, they seemed comfortable...so yay! My parents were thinking of inviting them out for dinner soon too. Oh, the xiao long baus were so good!!! so cute! Afterwards...bf and me went and watched Bride Wars...it was a pretty good chick flick, just that I hope he didn't get any weird thoughts or ideas about it...I think we also had bubbletea after that ehehehe.

My mum ordered me a new bed, without my consent and I received it yesterday as an early gift for CNY. My mum said it was like giving $500 in an ang pau and I should be considered very lucky. I think I would rather exchange the bed for money! But it isn't CNY just yet and I reckon that I will get an ang pau anyway hohoho. Thanx for the bed though! It's super comfy and really high...it comes up to my waist!

I also helped dorky clean up his uber messy room. I warned him that not cleaning for the new year is a bad indication for what the rest of the year would hold...or something like that =P We used his new duster from Singapore and turned it very black from just dusting the top of his aircon. Afterwards, we watched John Tucker must Die...it was such a teen movie but I liked it...Miguel from Passions was in it! Oh I miss Passions!!

Anyway, that's all I can think of for an update...sooooo now I wait for the new year!

Have a Happy and Prosperous Chinese New Year everyone xxoo

(Clarke Quay after the Clinic)

The last week...

When charm left, I think we started doing more things, don't know if it was because he was gone or if it was because we realised that our days were coming to an end or what..maybe it was because we couldn't think of anything else to do! We went out with Lovie one night, hoping to eat Katong Laksa, but it was closed so we ended up exploring Geylang at night. Omg, what an experience, the hookers...they really do line up with their pimps and allow guys to choose whoever they want. Most of them looked really young too, wearing just bras on the street and prancing around almost naked..it was a bit disturbing. The amazing thing was that along each bend there were specific groups of hookers in their ethnic groups...Indians had their area, Chinas and Camobodians or something like that. So if you want to experience something different on your next trip to Singapore...Geylang is the place to go! But, don't ask for the best durian that they have...it costs around $70...we suffered. We also met up with Asile again at Orchard and he took us girls to a Thai cafe place to eat authentic Thai food. The food was soooooo spicy, but quite nice. It was really entertaining there too because the cafe was located in a transvestite hang out place...so guess what we saw a lot of? Hehe a lot of stupid European guys getting suckered in by trannies..oh it was fun to watch..most of the trannies were really quite pretty too, until they opened their mouths. After that we took a bus somewhere only to go back to where we were before...it was confusing but in the end we ended up at a fancy bar where I had Pina Colada again =) We also went to the Night Safari, which was OK, alot of rushing and running! We all sweated heaps there...what a workout that night was! On another night we went to Zouk and watched the finals of the Gatsby dance contest there. Then we went upstairs to Phuture I think it was and played drinking games on an empty stomach...bad idea I tell you! After the drinks were gone, we were on the dance floor, then I was outside for the remainder of the night with bf hehe thanx bebe. It was all good, he managed to meet up with Nathan again! I woke up that morning and ate cold mushroom and cheese prata for breakfast..life saving stuff!

(Night safari-ing)
(Chicken and bf sight seeing)

The last day =(

The day before we left, the girls decided to pack suitcases in our PJ's while dorky visited his other grandma. We were so lazy! After packing we just bummed in our room until night where we decided to have our last meal together at Newton..oh the food that we ordered was so yummy...black pepper crab is the best! It was a good last meal for us and I think bf found it even better because Nathan met up with us and they had a beer together =) The night ended quickly and before we all knew it we started to go our separate ways. Bf's relatives picked us up and gosh, there were quite a lot of them. We had our final meal together at the budget terminal cafe...it wasn't terribly authentic there but good all the same. Then we were hugging and waving our goodbyes to everyone...bf's grandma was the cutest! How I'd love to see her again one day =) The plane trip home was more comfortable this time because we bought neck pillows..smart! I actually slept through half the journey! At customs...we were pretty much the last people out all because of three ugly looking sea cucmbers, which had to be identified as unendangered species before they could be free to leave. Stupid things...bet they'll taste good though! We finally got out from customs where we were greeted by my mummy and daddy..ooh how I missed my mum's cooking...it felt good to be back!! But what a nice and fun holiday I had...next trip...London? =DDD

(Me, bf, grandma, bf's mum@ east coast)

xxx yay for holidays!!

I read through my last blog and gees, to me...Christmas seemed like it only happened yesterday, but now the first month of 2009 is almost over! My goodness time really flies...

Anyway, let me officially start by saying...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! 2009 came by quickly and the remainder of the group and me celebrated in a different way...on the roof of Robin and Big Dan's house! Before that happened...on the night of NYE the mini party (Jen, Jas, Jeral, Shirley, Rach for a bit, Eva, bf and me) started off at Jennie's house, where we had fun playing pictionary, looking through Jen's old photos...oh how young the girls looked before...so cute and onnocent looking! We also drank a bit of bubbly and tasted Jen's jelly...they smelt nice haha...taste was a different story...don't worry Jen, I'm sure that with practise you'll be a jelly pro soon. Thanx for the effort though ahaha. Anyway after the house party we decided to drive to Big Dan's house to watch fireworks on their roof! They had no idea we were there, them being away overseas and all...it was sneaky mwahaha. Each one of us had to climb off the balcony around the house and up to the peak of the roof...good thing it was dark otherwise I would've freaked out. The climb was worth it in the end...the view was really nice. We had a few bloopers on the roof...the champagne was popped too early shocking us all plus we were all scolding Jeral ahah and we counted down to the new year either too late or too early...I'm not sure haha...it was just alot of fun! We did something different, maybe it's a sign that this year will be different too! Climbing down the roof was scarier than climbing up...I'm proud of myself...I didn't fall =) Afterwards we headed back to Jen's place to finish off our Pictionary game...unbelievably...we won ahahaha...go us! A good start to my new year hehehe!

That was it for what we got up to but now...it's time for a nice reflection...
While we were on the roof of the house, I had a quiet moment to myself haha...I wondered about the future and thought back to 2008, so many changes, growth, endings and new beginnings. It's really scary thinking about the new year but exciting not knowing what's to come...for me this year I am officially a graduate looking for a job. Just waiting for something to come up! I've made a new years resolution to be more active and more organised so that I will stress less..eat better food and just really enjoy life since I have time now...also not to hold grudges and be a better daughter/sister and friend...need to kick my stubborness out. Anways enough of that...all the best for everyone this year...take care and have fun because here comes another adventure =)

xoxo